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lexie grey appreciation week | day three: favourite romantic relationship - mark sloan

“You’re in me. You’re like— it’s like you’re a disease. It’s like I am infected by Mark Sloan and I just can’t think about anything or anybody and I can’t sleep. I can’t breathe. I can’t eat. And I love you. I love you all the time. Every minute of every day. I love you. God, that feels good to just say that. I feel so much better. I love you.” - Lexie Grey

“I love you. I do. I love you. I’ve always been in love with you. I will always be in love with you. Which is why you have to stay alive. We can get married. And you’re going to become an amazing surgeon. […] We’re going to be happy, Lex. You and me, we’re going to have the best lives, Lexie, you and me. We’re going to be so happy. So you can’t die, okay? You can’t die. Because we’re supposed to end up together. We’re meant to be. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.” - Mark Sloan

one of my spirit animals is dead

-chokes back her tears again-

Never Alone || Self-Para

The place seemed bigger than usual, and yet at the same time it felt so small. The windows were still as clear as ever, the bright rays of the sun shone onto the glass as I walked down the familiar hardwood floors. My eyes caught the sight of the room, the walls that were painted with a pale yellow that made Mona’s room warmer. Her bedroom only filled itself with boxes now, labels and tape wrapped around them naming whatever items were inside. Toys, clothes, little pieces of furniture that used to be scattered around her room, they were all now in boxes. All the rooms in our apartment were like this. Packed, to be moved to another town where they were going to live a new life. It was originally Jeremy’s idea to move to a new town. We all had to move on, we needed to start a new life with most of them not aging a single bit. Most of them were used to moving. Damon, Kol, Rebekah, they were all used to changes like this. Yes, I did move from time to time, but this moment seemed the hardest to let go and leave behind. 

This was a hard decision to make, but it had to be done. It was inevitable. I didn’t really like it, but I knew it would be for the best. Change was inevitable. It wasn’t always a bad thing, but it was still difficult to accept it. Johann von Goethe once said, “Life belongs to the living, and he who lives must prepare for changes.” That’s what sucked the most about change. You never know when it strikes you. Reality was sinking in to me. I leaned on the door frame, taking a deep breathe as my mind remembered every memory in the now-empty apartment. When Damon gave me the keys, walking inside my own apartment for the first time. The day that Kol and I made up again happened in my kitchen, it was also the place I found Kol’s letter, the one where he asked me to spend the rest of eternity with him. The bathroom where we decided to try for a baby, it was the same place where I found out I was pregnant. I spent my time just breathing in the air of the place, the familiarity so comforting and simple. It beared too many memories for me to give up to someone else. To another family who wanted this place for so long. This was where my little girl first walked and talked. Her room, the one where I was now standing, was where Ramona lived her first years. Memories flooded me as I stepped inside the room and looked out the window, seeing the sight of the Mystic Grill and the bookstore that was nearby. It was the first place Damon and I hung out. It seemed like such a long time ago and it was quite bittersweet seeing it once again. 

The silence was heavy around the room. I wasn’t used to it at all. I missed the music and the laughter that filled this place. It made me uncomfortable, as if something was wrong. Of course I knew Ramona was safe. Kol took her out for the day knowing that I needed this. I needed time alone to say goodbye to the place I loved the most. Our home. The sudden sound of the knock on the door interrupted my replay of memories. I turned around to see Damon leaning on the door, wearing his leather jacket as per usual. It was nice seeing his face even though I wanted this moment to myself. I walked up to him as he opened his arms to me, giving him an embrace as I let him stroke my back for support. “I don’t wanna leave.” I sighed as I looked up at my big brother, the one who stood by me through the ups and downs of my life. He was there for me to help me deal with my heartbreaks and my excitement. The fact that he was able to deal with me surprised me sometimes. He nodded as I rested my head on his chest, my breaths were slower this time, more deep I noticed. Maybe it was just me finally calming down. “I know you don’t want to leave, but think about it. We’ll still be together, we’ll just be in a new town that’s all.” He told me as I looked up at him, meeting his blue eyes as he wiped away the tear I failed to notice fall down my cheek. “I know,” I nodded as I pulled away, wiping my face as I let out a nervous laugh. “It’s just hard,” I said, struggling to speak, “leaving everything behind.” 

Damon continued to give me words of comfort, hugging me and saying some philosophical shit as I peaked on his shoulder to see a little blonde girl in a baby blue dress at the door. “Hey baby.” I let go of Damon and walked slowly to Mona. She ran to me as she let out her arms. I gladly held her, resting her little body on my waist. “Are you ready to go? Where’s your daddy?” I asked her as I kissed her cheek, messing her little blonde locks in the process. “Yes mommy!” She told me as she wrapped her arms around my neck, her head resting on my shoulder now. Kol appeared now in the room, planting a soft kiss on my lips as Ramona shrieked at the sight of us kissing. I couldn’t help but laugh, toddlers always seemed to react that way when their parents kissed each other. I looked to Damon for some help, his eyes understanding what I was requesting. “Hey Mona! Miranda’s waiting in the car and watching tangled. Do you want to join her?” My little girl sat straight up now and nodded in excitement as Damon carried her away, leaving Kol and I alone in the room now. “This is it.” I said as I wrapped myself around him and gave him another kiss, this time though it was uninterrupted. “Klaus’s hybrids should be here any minute to store all the boxes in the moving truck.” Kol stated as he let his finger run through my hair, never failing to make me blush at the sight of him. “You ready to go?” He asked me as he offered his hand, waiting for my reply as he flashed me the smirk he knew would instantly make me smile. “Yeah,” I sighed as I took his hand, moving closer to him as I smiled widely at him and at the thought of making new memories in a new place. I held his hand tightly as I walked out of the room with him, looking back again at Mona’s room one last time. I couldn’t help but smile now. No matter where I went I realized that I was going to have the people I loved with me. Wherever we all would decide to go in the end my home was with my new family. Change was inevitable. It was scary, that was for sure. I may be leaving my home for a new one, but life was going to go uphill from here. Everything had just begun for me. For Ramona, Kol, Damon, Jeremy, for everybody. It was the start of a new life, and to be honest even though we don’t know what’s in store for us, I couldn’t imagine living life any other way. Having them all in my life and being able to call them all my family, they would forever be my perfect home. I will always be home.

(Source: whatsyourbloodtype)

❝Did you say it? I love you. I don’t ever want to live without you. You changed my life. Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it. But every now and then, look around. Drink it in. Because this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.❞

(Source: thenightofthecomet)

notingale:

I will always find you